A New Begin/ REMINISCENE

Transformming

2010-09-29T07:57:00.000-07:00

Goin to be a new me after today, but will still miss and goin to meet my frensssss

I appreciate all i hv especially frensssssssss and my familyy

Mistake

2010-09-28T03:39:00.001-07:00

I made a huge mistake that i do not noe how to apologise.......

i juz wanna do everythin myself though i noe u r tryin to help and protect me, sorrry wish to be with u like we used to be

hope u sleep well

Over

2010-09-24T06:05:00.003-07:00

Putting my heart back together

Over

2010-09-24T06:05:00.001-07:00

Putting my heart back together

New BEGINn

2010-09-23T07:19:00.000-07:00

i had a new begin.....
i said i hate uu but i should be grateful to the best memory u gave
and thxx for the changes that u gaveee

The EnDD

2010-09-19T06:21:00.000-07:00

SORRY i dunno how to love... tat s wat he saiddd EnDDDD

To my beloved cousin sis

2010-03-07T06:38:00.000-08:00

A yong jie jie, my sis juz got married, tis s a good news ahaha, if u r free plsss bless the new bride up there. CNY juz ended ahahha every year is the same, we hv the same ceebration, we go for every open house le, the difference for tis year is tat we cant see u unluckily. ahaha haha Pei nee is taking good care of ur children dont worry, ur husband is good too i think but he definitely miss you so much, if u r free bless him too up there ahahahahha, actually we miss u too very very much though u not here, they mentioned you alwiz how good u r, wat u did to all of them for us.

We all miss you hope u r cared well up there with new frens new life up there, stop disturbing you now, i hv to continue my work.....................

倒带

2010-02-18T21:24:00.000-08:00

我受够了等待你所谓的安排　
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带　
你给的全是空白　一个人假日发呆
找不到人陪我看海　我在幸福的门外　
却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害　我是真的很难释怀　
终於看开爱回不来
你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来　
我的眼泪却一直掉下来　
过去怎么交代你该给的信赖　
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖　
从我脸上的苍白　看到记忆慢下来　
过去甜蜜在倒带　
只是感觉已经不在　
而我对你的期待被你一次次摔坏　
已经碎成太多块　要怎么拼凑跟重来

情歌

2009-11-08T23:36:00.000-08:00

时光是琥珀泪一滴滴被反锁
情书再不朽也磨成沙漏
青春的上游白云飞走苍狗与海鸥闪过的念头
潺潺的溜走
命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由
慢动作缱绻胶卷重播默片
定格一瞬间我们在
告别的演唱会说好不再见
你写给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢还好我有
我这一首情歌轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久
长镜头越拉越远越来越远
事隔好几年
我们在怀念的演唱会
礼貌的吻别陪我唱歌清唱你的情歌
舍不得短短副歌心还热着
也该告一段落还好我有
我下一首情歌生命宛如
静静的相拥的河永远
天长地久

过去还在

2009-09-08T08:00:00.000-07:00

阴影还在，画面还在出现，突然而然的出现。该怎样呢？？

过去真的很难忘记，偶尔会好像剪不掉的片段出浮现在脑海里让人呆，让人醒。

很想逃因为只希望快乐的画面印烙在脑海里，可真的好少。

今天，恐怖的画面又在出现，头真的很疼，它依然存在脑的一部份里，我很想告诉任何一个人，找

不到听众，真的还好有部落格。。。。。

今天终于学会不再掉泪，觉得最近都好倒霉，甚至觉得天在玩弄认似的，被搁在一个只能依靠自己的组里，没办法，听天由命啦。。。。。。。。。

妈说过，做人该懂得“忍”，

我要做“忍者” ！！！！！！！！！！！！

Good Bye

2009-08-27T01:35:00.000-07:00

We ll alwiz be wif you no matter how far u are.

We ll never never ever forget u, no matter where u are, u ll stay inside our memory forever.

We ll stay happily for ur sake too as we know tat s wat u want us to be

We ll try our best to fufill ur wishes

Take Care up there and see u there.............

Good Bye forever

永别了

2009-08-27T00:56:00.000-07:00

真的没想过, 人生可以那样的短暂, 出乎意料, 它可以如此的垂落。就在昨天, 她终于抵挡不过癌的攻击辞世了。她离开了世界, 离开了亲人还有离开了她的身躯. 爷爷带她走了吧, 可姑姑可需要白头人送黑头人很伤心吧。短短的三十多年结束了, 再也不会看到她了. 最遗憾的没如看不到她最后的笑容, 因为她是带着痛苦离开的：化疗的痛, 针刺的痛, 还有病痛陪她走了. 入土的是瘦瘦苍白的她, 还有不甘的她. 为何癌细胞会选择了她, 可一切都迟了,不能够再回头了. (是命运)

命中注定, 我们不能改变. 该发生的事终究会发生, 要怎样改变呢???
改变不了，可我们要学会去避免。
健康是时间，是金钱，是成功，是一切。因为没了健康，我们会少了时间去赚钱，去成功甚至去努力。日常生活中，我们最需要的用品是健康的身体才能完成一切。人生虽然说没有长生不老，但是也少不了活到老，健康到老。上天赐的，我们该去珍惜，去把握。人的生命一点也不草率，只要会活，活的精彩，努力度过每天，哪怕没了明天。
可以任命，但千万别认输

Trip and visit

2009-08-25T10:24:00.000-07:00

Juz back from a two days Port Dickson and Malacca trip. Supposely, i ll be tired and very excited after de trip but after visiting her, no more laughter no more excitement mood.
She is getting weaker and weaker, i think no one else can save her except miracle that most prob not appear we juz waiting for the time to take her away.
God plssss god i beg u plsss dont torture her plsss.....
U can either take her life away or let her stay healtily plsssss, make a decision now plsss...........

She s cold sometimes hot, sometimes weak and sometimes painnnnnnn. Is pain to see her in tat condition, plsss God i noe there s no one can save her life juz let her go reduce her pain plssss..... I noe U r busyin blessin and lookin others but plss take sumtime to look after her juz a decision can let her avoid the painess of Cancer plsss help her...................

EXAM OVER

2009-08-21T01:05:00.000-07:00

Finally. it s over and i m free now to read my eclipse my HArry Potter and study my JApanese. Wow feel so relieve as i can rest for an empty scedule week (oops almost forgot my PD trip ahahha). Really really hope there will be a much more happier new semester but till now there s no hope for that so juz wait and see. I really dunno how to solve this kind of relation and then i rather not to solve it since it should be solven not juz by me. LET IT BE!!!!!

I m hungry now stuck in my super lousy college after my exam waitin for other candidates to be done and back with them by bus after that with KTM. That s life, MY LIFE now.

I hav three wishes in my new semester

1st A new CAR hopefully i can get it not really hv to be very nice, but juz make sure that it wont break down eaasily and really really can save petrol. NOT EXPENSIVE at all.

2nd i wish to shop for my new semester CLOTHES, but really hav financial problem now as i goin to broke ahahhaha

3rd wishes is to hav a group members which is fix and i can co operate with them well ahahahha as i not so good in Social Skill.

Can i wish for one more plssss??????
oh yes u can ( getting mad )

I wish i can live peacefully and end my college life faster.................

Guan Yin niang niang plsss help me !!!!!!!!

他的生日快乐

2009-08-20T07:36:00.000-07:00

因为他才有了寂寞

因为他,息怒无常

因为他, 开始学会关怀

因为他, 懂得付出

因为他, 音符不再悲伤

可因为他, 有了害怕

有了忐忑不安

有了惊喜

伤口复原

有了生活

有了人生

有了等待

有了盼望

希望他能永远记得这一天.............

当天, 我最想知道, 他许下的五个愿望, 原以为能插20 根蜡烛, 可是雪糕能力有限, 只能让他有5 个愿望, 对不起.........

可是真的希望他所有愿望都能实现

想了几个晚上才想到的庆祝节目就在那一个晚上完成.......

希望能让这画面永远都烙在他回忆里..............

长生不老

2009-08-09T07:27:00.000-07:00

人生有选择吗???? 到了临死关头, 别无选择了, 为何没有长生不老呢???? 生命的可贵, 我到了现在才发现, 可对我而言, 我发现的早, 还有时间挽留, 还没成了遗憾. 还记得老陈的辩论比赛, 当时我在想长生不老, 是不应该, 人不该贪生怕死, 因为还有更多的小生命能有机会目睹这世界.
可我终于了解到, 它的重要.
并不是害怕死, 而是怕遗憾, 长生不老, 能挽留很多很多的遗憾. 人生中的缺陷, 也能就此被缝补.
我很害怕, 当我想挽留的时候太迟, 不是因为当时不懂的珍惜, 而是没有多出的两个小时让我们去珍惜, 到最后成为了遗憾, 已经太迟了.
从前的我, 觉得人生只不过是场梦, 可它不该是梦, 事实上也不是一常梦. 因为梦一旦醒了, 一切也许还在, 人生结束了, 一切都会没了, 没的挽留, 没的回头, 没的重演, 没的重梦.
人能珍惜多少, 能有多少, 明天事明天懂, 也许就在明天意外发生, 一切结束了.
所以, 从头到尾, 我们就没了选择,因为命的长短, 全都由死神判断.
人能有长生不老该多好

Sorry

2009-08-08T03:49:00.000-07:00

dy so sorry i cant make it to ur mum s funeral, but really hope u r fine now, i sent msgs to u but i cant get ur replies, hope u really ok, i know it is a hard time for u, but i really really reall really hope u ll be fine, i dunno wat else i can say, muz take care of ur health plssss, u still have a lot of works to do ur dream to go.... u r strong i noe tat, keep up ur mum ll bless u, she loves u no matter where she is, she just went far far away to a happyland sorry, really sorry, i hope i can be there with u to at the funeral, i hope i can listen to u too, i wan u be happy be fine, and stay strong, i m ur jie so plsss listen to me k?

all the while i juz can say so, i m useless to u either, but i really hope u r good sorry for not attending the funeral really sorry i really want to go but i cant sorry reallly sorry to u and sorry to hear tat.
Cancer really scary to me now, we muz alwiz take care of our health.
Life is weak sumtimes aprreciate it, make every second in ur life as meaningful as u can, do the things that u think is right, tell de appropriate things and true things can cause ur life happier, dont ever live in hatred, is hard and dont ever be fake is hard, i really pity to those who hate, who fake, and those who like to talk bad behind others, pity them but forgive them, sometimes they dint mean it, it is juz how they learn and developed since they were young. Forgive them, sometime u can learn more from them. Becuz i learn a lot too.I really mean it, dont hate anyone besides u, learn more to forgive.....

Live dont leave

2009-08-06T04:05:00.000-07:00

Izzit so hard to live on???????? yeah i admit it, is hard to live on, continue life that s miserable, hard and tough.

What to do, we were born and we choosed to stay, just stay. Sometimes we don't hav the choice to choose to stay becuz perhaps when we cross a road, a stupid car juz bang on us and we hv to say bye bye to tis world. HMM think too much, but definitely not now as i juz sitting infront of tis laptop.
Though sometimes we have to make decision in life, as we have to. While we were holding the power to say yes or no, do or don't. It is a hard task for me deifinitely becuz there will be many pros and cons that i hv to think list down and check it up.

I alwiz think of, will i be a good leader a day as one day i might lead a company of workers or might be a bosss one day. Who knows, will i good in doing tat i wonder.Ofcourse not now, as i still on de way to it, but can it be one day???
I wan to, i hope i can and it is my ability.

There s a story about a crow, it saw an eagle caught a sheep with its crawl up to de sky, and it tried to immitated what de eagle did and it tried very hard. But in the end, it was caught by the shepherd and ended up staying de cage for the rest of its life.

This story tell us not to do sumthing that beyond ur ability.
Izzit the true that the crow can never be the eagle, sparrow can never be phoenix, do i need to believe tat. Is funny bcuz i still want to becuz that is wat i believe and that is wat i want. No matter how hard i hv to try even it ll sacrifice my entire life but i still want it.

加油喔

2009-06-21T07:49:00.000-07:00

无聊望见了犹豫 (谁人没试过犹豫)
达到理想不太易即使有信心斗志却抑止
谁人定我去和留定我心中的宇宙
只想靠两手向理想挥手
问句天机高心中志比天更高
自信打不死的心态活到老
我有我心底故事
亲手写上每段得失乐与悲与梦儿
纵有创伤不退避
梦想有日达成找到心底梦想的世界终可见
亲手写上每段得失乐与悲与梦儿
梦想有日达成找到心底梦想的世界

青蛙

2009-06-10T07:08:00.000-07:00

每当在下雨之前, 青蛙都会叫个不停好像在告诉所有人快要下雨了.......
我很喜欢雨天, 尤其是绵绵细雨, 虽然带来一点悲愁, 可是过后总会有彩虹. 人的生命中, 总会有雨过天晴吧????
记得他曾经问我, 人活着有什么意义, 其实我也不知道. 我给的答案, 是为了他, 不让他怀疑. 记得高中的埔导老事让我们看了一部影片, 描述在德国发生的人间大悲剧.......................
还有日本人狂妄的慰安妇,当时的人都在求生逃氓 ,求生意志强 ,甚至为了活, 放弃尊严. 老师问, 你爬死吗????? 当时我没回答. ( 懒的理 ).

我并不懂, 我怕死吗? ??? 我知道, 我很怕很怕活, 地球和地狱有不同吗????? 我见识了地球, 可是它很可怕. 在这里, 总会面对提心吊胆, 生老病死, 爱恨情仇......................

它美吗?? 我看不到........... 我觉得和人家所描述的地狱反而很相似.

我不明白, 当时的人为什么要逃, 为何要躲, 为何要生...

长大了

2009-06-07T02:06:00.000-07:00

林薇青, 终于你长大了, 今年21 , 好快喔, 转眼间已经活了21 年, 赚了21年的生命.

谢谢天谢谢地, 谢谢爸妈, 让我埃过了21 年. 很希望能够有更多的21年, 让我走下去.

今天时21岁07天, 感觉还是一样. 无无聊聊的走过了21年07天.

不过还好, 最起码, 这些年来都没做过危害人类的事情. 算成功吧,

而且也算乖了21年, 从没逃学, 或不回家.

我的生活向来都是晴天, 就是自己太爱雨天然后呢,

就偶尔下下雨. 不过彩虹最后都还是出现. 可是大了, 雨天越来越少,

烦恼倒越来越多.

真想回到过去, 过回没烦恼有雨天的生活, 挽回雨天,

也不在讨厌雨天. 因为, 偶尔能下下雨, 感觉很不错,

很想是个长不大的小孩, 还可以在草原奔跑, 生活, 真的很无聊无趣,

但无忧无虑.

记得以前, 还能在运动会的7 个奖, 现在老了, 一百米,

根本就累死人的运动, 小孩的体力走了, 病痛全部来了. 该是时候运动了.............

21st birthday wish

2009-06-04T07:12:00.001-07:00

I hv no idea wat to wish for, becuz the more i wish, the more i feel disappointed. I hd learned not to hope or wish anythin but juz do wat i hv to.... Tat s all

As usual everyone will hv to make a wish before they blow the candle on the cake, but then i was afraid to make any wish. I hv no confident, i m scare loosing, i m afraid of disappointed. While others were singing Birthday song, i was wondering, wat should i wish for............. nothing

Becuz i not sure whether the things i wish ll come true one day.

Izzit a muz that everyone should make a wish before blowing the candle, cutting the birthday cake, if it is a muz, i hv already break the rule, the traditional rule, becuz my mind my heart was empty at the moment that everyone asked me to make the wish. I did close my eyes and pretend that i was making a wish, but i wasnt at all. I dont even dare to wish for sum1 else becuz i was afraid to face another disappointment.

Sorry for everyone that wished me for my 21st birthday, i wasted it. Many things in my life that taught me not to wish not to dream not to hope for anythin.

But luckily and fortunately i hv a nice sweet unforgetable or memorable 21st birthday.

Thank GOd i hv him,

Thank God i hv my family with me

Thank God U dint bring any misfortune to me on that day

The happiest thing that happened on my birthday was eating he baked cake. It wasnt really delicious, but it was nice. I noe how important i m to u at least. Though it made him tired but he still managed to baked it for me. HAhhahha but it melt at last so sad....................

The smoke salmon pizza from Italianies...... He kept his promise that he ll bring me there and finally he brought me there to hv a nice nice nice dinner with cocktail and ......................

Continue with my present, wat i got from him???

LOt s ppl wondering ahhahaaa asked me???

GUESS IT !!!!!!

A bracelet from Thomas Sabo, it hv a no 21 with it so nice but really feel hard to wear it hhahaha becuz i scare i ll brake it, i m such careless gal but

I promise i wont brake it.

加油!!!!

2009-05-03T04:47:00.000-07:00

对不起, 我只能默默的在替你加油, 替你祈祷............

还有可以当熊娃娃, 让你发泄吧.....................

最近的你, 心情很低落................

我看到的, 可是很无能为力

我知道你的压力

我很想帮你

我帮不了

能做的

我都尽力了

不过一点都没用

希望下一科

希望下一次

下一次的每一次

都难不倒你

将来, 你一定会出色

是人才, 你会做的到的

加油喔!!!!!!

LIFE

2009-04-26T22:08:00.000-07:00

Grandpa, i tot u ll take care of us up there, i tot u ll bless us, are u busy there??? Though i not really close wif them, i really hope all of my family live well, y u wanna take her life away. Izzit death god bringin her away............... ask him not to come near her, she s living happily enjoyin her life wif her pretty gal and handsome boy as well as her husband. They are so happy for nearly 10 years. Y u wanna take away as u gave them. Y cant they live till the end, till they become old.

I never see dad droppin his tears, never even once, but today it dripped from his eyes, i m scare, super scare, wat if the things happen to me, ll he be sadder than now. I dont wan that, i really dont hope that he ll cry, i rather he angry than he cry. I noe family is important for him though juz like they r important for me too.

Y ??? Grandpa, y she hav to go, y she hav to left her family that she built, who force her to do so, izzit the bad demon, or izzit the death god wanna take her away. Y cruel things happened??? iziit reality alwiz cruel, y?????
Y a person who live healthily can get cancer???????? Wat will happen to her children, no one can take care of them except their mother. PLSssss plssss, god plsssss, can u change the news to a fake news plssss........ can u change the reality plsss, can u make me a happy ending.
PLSSSsssss ssssssssssssssssss

EXAM OVER

2009-04-24T07:11:00.000-07:00

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU, finally my final was over ahahahaahhaaha but still hav lot s things to do, workin, piano ing lot s more ................

Before the final paper ahaha, i already celebrated (cant wait to) at ZANMAI (Japenese cuisine), the garden ahahha. I think the staff there sure remember us till today becuz we was the noisiest customer there aaaha. This the 1st time i have Nato a japanese smelly bean that mixed wif mustard..... and dunno wat other ingredients was added that make it so un delicious and smell like rotten egg.

This is wat my fren took when i ate it. Actually i was treated by them but not tryin it once but not for next time becuz after u eat u wont dare to open ur mouth until u brush ur teeth ahhahhaa. super smelly. There s a new dish at Zan mai but i do not check the name yet ahhahah, it look like a burger and is so nice till my frens feel hard to eat it ahahaha.

This is the effect that celebratin too early for the end of final ahhaaaha, i lost 8 mark already........... haizzz. Next sem, i wont do that again anyway.

We ll miss you

2009-04-13T23:37:00.001-07:00

Akif, teacher ll miss you, thouhg i juz taught you for 8 months, i ll miss you. Why you went so suddenly??? Juz a high fever, take away ur life. Why cant you continue ur life to standard one to form one and to Uni...........

Juz six years, u had live in this world u gone earlier than teacher, though living is tough, but think of ur mum that sacrificed lot s for u. No one ever give up of u though we noe that u are weak, but at last u giv up and gone forever.

Do u choose to???? U still young, still immature to choose......

We love you and ll miss you, take care there!!!!!!!!!!!

My gOoD Fr!daY

2009-04-10T05:53:00.000-07:00

OOps the pain really tortured me, paiiinnnn. I m lame now, becuz of the small tiny toe that make me suffer today. Walking to the toilet was juz harder and a longer journey to me. ( I m trying not to drink water now). Today i was so excited that i had finished up my lesson plan, and kept all the absentees' writing books to the pigeon hole, but i was over excited and accidentally kicked the side of the pigeon hole and hurt my last toe. Luckily i covered my mouth to avoid from screamin like i used to ahhaahaha. The other s teacher saw me hopping with a leg, they already knew it ahaha. Ths the 1st time i need to use the 1st aid kit which normally it was used for students. Haiizzzz, super unfortunately, the element in the 1st aid kit was expired ahahhaha.So "GOOD".

The worse things happened today was my class cancelled. Plss dont misunderstand i m so hardworkin and so desperate for the class. It actually means that the class had been postponed to next friday which i had to attend to get my courework mark and hints for my finallll. ( i really dont hope that ll happen).This useless college only know how to harass the students. HAiizz useless college with a principal hunger for money and lecturer s with lots of medical certificate. i muz be blind folded when i choose to be here.

蝸牛

2009-03-22T06:13:00.000-07:00

該不該擱下重重的殼　
尋找到底哪裡有藍天
隨著輕輕的風輕輕的飄　
歷經的傷都不感覺疼
我要一步一步往上爬　
等待陽光靜靜看著它的臉
小小的天有大大的夢想
重重的殼裹著輕輕的仰望
我要一步一步往上爬　
在最高點乘著葉片往前飛
小小的天流過的淚和汗　
總有一天我有屬於我的天
我要一步一步往上爬　
在最高點乘著葉片往前飛任風吹乾　
流過的淚和汗我要一步一步往上爬　
等待陽光靜靜看著它的臉
小小的天有大大的夢想我有屬於我的天任風吹乾　
流過的淚和汗　
總有一天我有屬於我的天

A wheel

2009-03-20T02:06:00.001-07:00

Hope alwiz stay within us, but achievement is too faraway...
It needed courages to been through reality for the dream to come true.
It was hidden inside de mist that we harden reach it. IS all fate for the dream to choose to let us climb up on it isnt it true????
Do we hv the choice in reality, or fortune are the one who choose us????
But not everyone that can be choosed by it.
Becuz the place is alwiz limited.

I alwiz believe that there s a reason for a person to fail, it muzbe.
But, in real life, there s a lot failure that doesnt hv any reason behind it. No matter how the ppl try, how hard they struggle, a happy ending doesnt belong to them.
M I Wrong????? i wish to noe, can U tell me?? Can U???

I m afraid of failure, i tryin not to.
But the road i taken is not as smoothly as i wanted.
I scare i ll lost my courage to move on one day
becuz i knew how hard a life can be, i already knew.
It made me weaker day by day. I need strength for my dream to come true.
I need strength to stand up again whenever U make me fall from the stairs,
I need strength to fight against the odds that U gave me,
I need strength to reach the destination.

I wont stop even U make me to
I wont cry even U hurt me sumtimes
I wont afraid of the difficulties U gave me
I wont stay even U make me to
I will keep on running even U stop me to
i will still stand even U make me fall

BEcuz i not juz a wheel that controlled by U

M I MAD???

2009-03-19T03:44:00.001-07:00

Throwin tantrum is not a goood way of releasing anger, but i alwiz do. I juz cant control it whenever i feel annoyed especially when my mum shouted at me bout tis bout tat. I juz couldnt control it juz like she does. Haiizzz tat s why we alwiz quarrel izzit?? My wonderful day had juz ruined. I really dont like to be oredered to do sumthin when i watchin movie when ii restin n when i was doin sumthin else. I dint mean to threw tantrum but i juz dont like while i was watchin, it suppose to be my rest time the only time i hv. Now it has gone no mood to watch anymore now.
N then She is now really mad wif me showin her temper infront of me, I really get mad for tat not dare doin anythin infront of her not even dare to see her. I really really feel like goin out now. GOing anywhere which i can escape from allll this HAIIIZzzz. Boss n MUm OMG, both is enuf to ruin up my life. I really really really dont hope i m exist in tis world. I M NOT EXISt it would be better NO pain NO gain. Is flat nothin happen or forever unconcious, CAn i be tat, impossible!!!!! Dont dream bout tat!!!! I was juz the 'lucky' one to be chosen to live here hehehhe so lucky.

HEy everyone!!! All of us ll hv the same prob. once in our life. Let s fight wif it together for our Happyness CHEERS that everythin ll become better one day. Hope and dream for the nice day for us. Work hard buddy!!!!!

Remember, we can grumble but we still need to work hard to show everyone we r good we r the best becuz we hv tomolo we hv future..............................

Is breaktime !!!!

2009-03-13T07:12:00.000-07:00

OMG, when i ll say it out loud, i m havin a most tiring life ( not really). But for me, it does tiring. Taking two jobs ( part time) while studyin is not really a good idea. First of all it s not good when u wish to hv a break after u get home, taking a rest and feelin relieve, tat s another job waitin for u. WAKAKKAKA it s not really a good idea. Well, no choice, i was partially broke becuz of fees, shoppin fees, shoppin hahhahha. That s wat i hv to pay for ( who wan to sponser me??? ) No one, then i hv to depend on myself n my mum LOL.

But that s good to keep me away of thinkin bout u, thinkin some nonsences or thinkin some irreality things ( dreamin). Though life is tiring, is good to hv dream while u were workin unconciously, dreamssss make u awake aahahhaah. But i m tryin not to dream becuz it s cuz me headache. It has been 4 days i hvg headache, not really tortured but it make me not to concentrate. Even the most sour food cant wake me up when i was in unconcious condition.

But i m doin quite well now,

becuz i hv a secret recipe ahahhahaha .....

SLEEP EARLIER AND WAKE UP EARLIER aahahhaahahhahah

if u really hv a lot of work to do n exam is comin, the best way is to sleep b4 12 and wake up b4 3. IT keeps us to remember much more the things we read and get more energetic in the next mornin. But headache definitely cannot be avoided.

Wake up b4 3 n hv a cup of tea. Save more time n hv more time to finish up all the stuff but maintin our health ( hopefully) ahhahahhaahhaha

Have a break, and hv a cup of tea..............

NEVER RUIN UR LIFE WIF TIRENESS becuz we came here to LOOk For HaPPineSS

Creative Class

2009-03-08T07:17:00.001-07:00

Wooww, everyone think tat s a interestin class but not for me.. Is borin n meaningless class for me. Haiizzz especially becuz i really dislike sewing n then drawin especially makin story book. i hav to struggle to come out wif an idea but my mind is totally empty. Caant think of anythin for the story book, hope tat my sis was here... She is really good in drawin haiiizz though i was her sis but not good in it at all aahahha ( diff genetic). Heaaaddache but hv to do it anyway.

So sleepppyyyy, today woke up super early to compamy my mum to the mornin market ahahaha then the most funny thing happened in the market was i cant keep close to my mum n then i got lost ahahhahahaah. But she should noe i m holdin a lot of things n then cant catch up her pace sooo unfair n after tat hv to get scolded by her too. Mornin market hv too many ppl. IS hard to see where was she n then catch up loooolll.

Stomach pain the whole day edy, dunno y n then feell dizzy n headache now. It make me think of a song ( old McDonald has a farm). ---- Old little wq very pain yee ya yeee ya o. Here pain there pain everywhere pain pain .. Old little wq very pain yee ya yee ya o........... Nice soong rite??
i cant believe i m 21 tis year so sad my sweet 18 happy 19 n adventurous 20 goin to endddd ( 2 n a half month more) i really really wish the day wont come true. But true is alwiz cruel, we cant escape but to face it. The way that we can change it to be a happy scene is to take care of our health our skin our body.................. everythin!!!!

NEVER LET Our AGE TO DECIDE OUR LOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We hav
Bio Yung,
Lo Hong Ga hmmm
COLLAGEN hmm
TERRIMEE n then
NEW YORK n then
NANO WHITE
OLAY UV WHITE n then
SK 2 n then we hv
BIO ESSENCE n then
BIOTHERM n then
THE BODY SHOP n then
Brands n then
Herbal life
Amway
Ecosway
old grandmother way

to keep us young.

So take care galsss ( oopss i forgot Vitamin M-- money)

I HATE CENTIPEDE

2009-02-15T03:12:00.000-08:00

Tis the 2nd time i hv bitten by centipede, i hate it and quite pain, the centipede is like 10cm long went into the bathroom while i was takin bath ( tryin to peep me but it have no eyes luckily ahhaa) so bad maybe it juz too love me ( jokin) n it climb to my foot and bite me ( it hated me) so baddd!!! Another lesson for me, the first aid book haven mentioned anythin about the treatment and signs or symptoms of centipede bites OMG i hav to do research again. Y ME?? i juz dunno y those insects really like to choose me to bite or suck my blood oopsss is pain i have bitten by leech three times as i went for camp once and mountain climbing twice haiz. Each time i go, i will sure see the leech under my foot sucking my blood after i take off my shoes so bad i hated leech too though it wont frightened me but it really irritate me haizzz. PLSSS STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!!!! Now the problem is does the centipede poisonous?? Yes it is but it is not not toxic enuf to be deadly like snakes do. Normally u ll see swellin on the place it bites, since the swell is not there i consider tis centipede is not a toxic becuz it is not tat big juz leave it so lol.........
PLSSSS dont come near me again!!!!!! ( to all the insects including mosquito i warn u if not i goin to buy bats as my pet to eat u all!!!!!! ) I ll revenge!!!!

Valentine Celebration

2009-02-15T02:00:00.000-08:00

Nice?? ahhahaah both of us made it, i made the Potatoes Salad and he made the Bacon rolled wif mushrom and the Salmon ahahaha. So happy to hv ttis successful Dinner but after we made it, dont feel like eatin it anymore. Maybe was becuz we feel hard to finish up it after workin hard of makin it hehe. Funny things is normally ppl will fried the Bacon few slices together ahhaha we fried it one by one n even the salmon oopsy we bought the wrong salmon fish at Jusco supermarket its bone was much more than its meat ahhahaha. But the Salmon is the best thing to eat for tat dinner. Is quite crispy and hmm dry and oily wakakkaa. Actually i think the potatoes was nice la juz no one noe how to enjoy it, taste it so sad after so much of work, the potatoes ( half of it) was used to feed the DUSTBIN haiz so sad sad bad bad. FINE, at least the dustbin enjoyed it and ate them all. BAAAAADDDD !!!! EHHE, the best part of the nite was after we cleaned up all the stufff sitting down relaxed and enjoy the Champange i bought. THe nite hadnt end yet, he tricked me to play a game he made after he learned Programmin eeheh I added up our birth date numbers untill it became a single number n then added up the numbers of the letters of our name Guess wat i get after tat?? IS A GRAPH SHOWIN A LOVE SHAPE have anyone did tat to gf?? i think less ppl had do tat but anyway let start it it is special and sweeeett and touching. EHEHHE

THE END OF 13 April 2009

We went to Look out Point near Pekan Ampang on Valentine nite ahaaha as we promised to ehee is really nice there and u can see the whole KL. THe scene is nice there and u probably get chill by the cold air up the hills aaha. Here s come my valentine present a rose but is almost wilt now so sad but it can be used to make a bookmark or a hmmm dried flower it ll be nice too rite? I really hope i can keep it longer or forever though tis juz the 2nd time in my life received ROSES but then but it sthe most meaningful roses i have ever received........... Missing him now eehhee

Valentine Ended get back to study now ahaa wake up wake up from dream now get back to reality aahhaha

你要的爱我明白

2009-02-11T05:05:00.000-08:00

虽然经常梦见你
还是毫无头绪
外面正在下这雨
今天是星期几
But I don't know
你去哪里
虽然不会怀疑你
还是忐忑不定
谁是你的那个唯一
原谅我怀疑自己
我明白
我要的爱会把我宠坏
像一个小孩
只懂在你怀里坏
你要的爱
不只是依赖
要像个大男孩
风吹又日晒
生活自由自在

LOST

2009-02-09T21:43:00.000-08:00

Lost is a pain that we ll been through in our lives. My pregnant fren T Linda, just lost two babies who are juz goin to be delivered in 1 month plus time. It sure a hard time for her losting her babies. Those who read tis blog of mine, plss treasure the time the things the people and the life u have even those who made u angry, made u sad or made u hate. Life is long journey to go, possible u ll lost them the next second the next minute or the next day. Have you ever think that, treasure the time that u hv wif them before is too late, before it becomes a nostalgia of ur life. Though u might lost them one day, but u ll have the best memory that u have wif them.

I am a stupid gal that never hv appreciate what i hv, including my life my family. Quarrels are juz common among my family, but i nvr hate them, is juz sumtime i do let them down. I regret for that, wat i did i say do really hurt them, make them worry. Ya perhaps all of us hav the authorities the right to do wat we want or wish to, but the world is juz not urs. B4 u try to say sumthing or do sumthin plsss think to the person that love s u care bout u and right beside u. Is juz never the same. U r not alone in this world, there are still others around u that need u. Especially those who tried to suicide, hav u ever think that..... me too tried to end up my life b4 thinkin that life is juz a hard long way to torture us. But it isnt the same when u think of others, something or somebody do treasure and care ur life so if u dont wan it juz think of those who really wanted it care for it

A Brand New Gal

2009-02-08T23:02:00.001-08:00

Reminiscene has ended, becuz is tired stucking in the past and the memory. That s the small world i should escaped from. Looking towards the future, there s still a lot of possibilities that can happened, it might be better, it might be worse. I juz watched " The Pursuit Of Happyness". Happiness is juz a noun that probably happen in our life. Quotes by Thomas Jefferson " Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness". Happiness is juz the thing that we can pursuit, we might not have it. But no one can ever take ur happinees away from u, it s the thing that we work for, we look for and we wait for.

From now on, the journey willl be started, to pursuit the happiness i alwiz want for. For dream, for hope, for family, and for tommorrow. I have to work harder and harder not juz to study but everything. Becuz i have a dream, though everyone telling me even my mum telling me tat s impossible, but i believe it i can do it becuz i wan it.
Reminiscene is juz showing the gal who r naive now on her life ll be changed....
The part of life being naive has ended, the new part of life has beginning. NO more CRIES, No more GRUMBLES, No more COMPLAINTS and No more NAIVE

Keep fit and study

2009-02-05T04:20:00.000-08:00

大嘴巴

2009-02-04T04:54:00.000-08:00

该从那里开始形容她呢? 其实, 我不恨她, 并不讨厌她, 我该谢她, 有个讨人厌的嘴巴, 让我懂得去面对, 成长. 我很害怕她, 曾经是, 可现再, 不会了. 习惯就好...... 妈常告诉我, 病从口入,祸从口出, 像她那样, 祸是迟早的. 所以别怕了, 要面对的是数不尽的. 学习去面对人家的言语, 人家的虚言,人家的假. 笑里藏刀, 很真的, 很实在. 暗箭要防, 该防, 可是不该的去打草惊蛇. 这个社会, 就会有让人提心掉胆的生活. 不错吧..............

她确实好恐怖, 真真的确确实实的认识她, 才会觉的她有多可怕. 知道吗?? 她的嘴巴, 会让人生败名烈, 让人反目成仇, 厉害吧???? 我还是该提防.

My CNY

2009-01-29T06:12:00.000-08:00

LOOOK !!!! Nice lantern everywhere, here s de renowned TIAN HOU PALACE, ahahaha the lantern showin de 12 Zodiac but ahaha he cant even remember the arrangement of the ZODIAC ( half BANANA). But nice to visit Tian Hou Palace, i pray to a HUGE Guan YIn Buddha hopefully SHE heard my wish................. NIce to visit the LANTERN Palace, it hav been through 120 years but still look magnificient WOW but we juz donate 20 ringgit for the palace ahhahaha hopefully the money can help. Wat a Coincidence, ahaha i met Wilson that s the nite for 1st day of chinese NEwYEar. Of cuz i got ang pau too but not much ahhahahahah hv to struggle for more prepare more greetings chimese idiom to ask for more ang pau...........

Nothin special for tis CNY, not as fun as the previous CNY s but then that s a traditon and a culture for all the CHInese around the world, so we must continue our culture our tradition to next next next next next *( infinity) generation ohohohohohohoho, make sure the married couple giv ANg Pau woohohohhhohoh.

OOps sorry i left out sumthin, i visit his house at nite, wow we hv fun wif firework aahhaah, not tat romantic as u think but is fun becuz it s nice. But the firework is gettin shorter n lesser and much more expensive woow so stingy the firework seller. Perhaps the tax is higher for them to sell firework ahaha becuz it pollute the air wakkakkkakak. But is fun havin once a year.

A start

2009-01-12T05:08:00.000-08:00

So happy to talk to her again, at least for more than half an hour i chatted wif her last nite, thx god, finally we hv a good start and a nice talk...... hopefully there s no enmity btwn us, we r not at the begining but dunno y we hv the same thought that both of us are tryin tO avoid from each other, though i noe she my still afraid that i was those fake.. but time ll tell everythin i believe bout tat........ at least we hv a good start. Muaahahhahaha now i m a treasurer again to my school only committee ahahaha, super funny but i ll still do my job well tryin to do well hoopefuly it wont affect my career and my study. Summore tats the 2nd time i be a treasurer so i think it wont be hard task for me then ohohohoho luckily the money that we save the assistant treasurer ll keep so i hv no worry bout loosin the money ahaha thx god to hv a assistant treasurer that can be trusted ahaha. Last semester i hv a super yulks result from 3.5 dropped to 3.29 , wow tat s terrible feel like tearing the result from the board that show it wakakkaka no As ttis time so sad, i knew it, i cant do well becuz i hv a tired n unhappy semester, but i got over it finally, the new sem start, though the sub topic that we hv now is prob tougher and the lecturer for the first aid class is really ****** n i m much more busier now so wat to do is juz to struggle harder and shut up and work hard..............

1st day preschool

2009-01-06T05:43:00.000-08:00

wakakakkakakaka, i hv a very very special student, she s a Negro mix with Malay, and she is super super cute. Wow, though she is in three years of age but then oh i measured her weight
( obese ) suprisingly, 31 KG. A three years old child, 31 KG, but luckily she is an independent gal. As usual, the 1st week of the school, u can heard a lot of crying babies especially for age 3 and 4.
Wow this year we hav a super smart and charming little boys named Adam. Ehehhee but not my student... He has a really attractive look. Then who else, 1st day of school, weirdy students sure a lot, but then they were all cute and need guidance for sure to acclimatize the new surrounding wakakka. But really cannot take it easy, not only becuz of the students, but as well as the NGOK NGAK.
Well our preschool is not tat big and spatial enuf to squeezed wif parents, until the teachers hv to keep on say " excuse me", "sorry", and then " excuse me" .........................., wow continue wif cryin babies wow, a tough day but ehehehe challengin to comfort the child ahaha, huggin them and finally they listen to u, not to cry n then start playin n mix around wif frens. Super happy ^.^

助人为快了之本

2009-01-06T05:09:00.000-08:00

原来, 他需要的是一个开导他的人, 很庆幸的, 我能让他笑了。一开始，我真的以为他变了，不在是

以前的他。虽然他的她，也许不是那么的爱他，可她成了他的斗志，他开始学英语了，真的好开

心，他会有那样的动力。但她的一言一语能变化他的情绪，很担心，如过或万一他们的这段感情

吹毁了，他能承受的了吗？回想过去，我曾经也是他，认识我的，都该觉得我很懦弱。我不会在是，而且很希望身边的人，都不要在是以前的我。

从前一个很爱哭的女孩，带给很多人麻烦的女孩。她哭累了，弱的累了，她要改变成一个不哭的铁人或一个带给人欢笑的小丑，她人生还该有理想，她远离了自卑，相信自己能做到。她很希望他同样能做到，不是为了谁，是为了自己，还有瞧不起自己的人。

The Sixth day

2008-12-17T05:37:00.000-08:00

hey y u haven up date ur blog wif ur Osaka photo, i wan to see eh, especially the Geisha, sure super super pretty i really wish to go by myself like u once in my life time, now onwards, i will learn Japanese, i will learn ahahaha, as u promised u much teach me oso plsssss. Other than that, i ll train myself to cycle, ahahahaah as u noe, i m super lousy in cycling, juz once u teach me only eee dont laugh at me o, i noe tat time i shouted like a big so po, but seriously, i m scare, super scare ehehhee but finally i can turn the pedal for 7 round until the bicycle stall ahahaha, u really a good coach, next time, u can try to interview to becum a coach if u cant find other jobs, it s suit u becuz, obviously u hv a good leadership especially to handle followers like me. AAHHAA but see i m improvin.... one day i might got oveer u.. i believe that, i m ambitious now (jokin) tired sleepy, but study soon. Hey miss ya

2008-12-16T06:07:00.000-08:00

人生太多不愉快的事了，可我们都要看的开，因为我们选着了，也许就在我们喝孟婆汤之前，我决定了要忘了前世，所有不开心的事，重新再活一次，而阎罗王，给了我们机会，所以我们又到这个世界, 同样的，遇到不愉快的事，可能最好的方法，就是尽量的把它忘了，重新再活一次，那不如意的事也许也成了好事，我们不用学会去坚强, 勉强自己不开心的去笑, 我们需要, 学会忘, 学会放, 那才可以开心的... 要不想想, 还有许多许多不如意的事很侥幸的, 没发生, 就会更开心了, 不要认为自己很惨, 要觉得有人, 比起你, 还更不幸....... 开心笑, 世界多美好。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

The fifth day

2008-12-16T04:11:00.000-08:00

Have a terrible day today, super tired but still hv to take a long way train to get home, thinkin of u while the journey to back home, dunno y, keep on non stop thinkin of u, perhaps too tired and sleepy, juz to think u to keep me awake, if not i sure miss the station where i hv to gt down from the train... ehehehe, i m sick again durin the exam so kelian, my mouth super pain wif ulcers, hard to talk and even laugh oso it will pain, i dunno y i writin msg to u from blog but tat s the way to let u know becuz u wont read my testi from friendster anymore if i dint tell u i did send, last nite ur story too long, but though i hv a nitemare too, sorry errrr i dint talk to u much, i was not in good mood to talk, summore with extremely pain mouth, i dont think i can talk too much... tats the diisaster for not drinkin much water as u told me to but dont get mad of it k? i ll drink more now onwards c u soon

The Fourth Day

2008-12-15T04:33:00.000-08:00

Today the 1st paper, dint do well anyway, now have to study, juz to tell u a fuuny thing happen, i bought three papaya wf 1 ringgit, actually from the stall i fren, my mum pay five ringgit but the guy refuse to take n gave my mum 4 ringgit change, miss u a lot, juz gt a super short phone call from u ahaha, but sure super expensive sure..... i wanna tell u sumthin when u back, i hv to........
Enjoy there

第三天了

2008-12-13T21:07:00.000-08:00

今天，已经是第三天了，再倒数，大概还有四天，就可以和你聊了。明天，考试的第一天，有点担心，而且，很想时间能过的快点，记忆，也需要好一点，因为需要记下很多资料。你过的还好吧？向来，你都爱吃日本餐，应该习惯吧？？？油价又跌了，现在是1.30 了, 多亏渔夫的功劳..... 不过,有预感, 將來會再起. 玩的開心點喔................

第二天

2008-12-13T02:12:00.000-08:00

今天很累，忙了一天，好多学生都快毕业了，大部份都缺席，剩下的，只是冷清清的教室。很想你，每次陪我聊天，话题在少，在无聊，只要跟你聊，总不觉闷。很想听你说故事，今天发生的事，你过的还好吧？？？？？很想听你形容日本，应该很美吧？？？第二天了，没和你聊了，心情很反常，也许明天会好些吧？我不会想太多，放心。。。。

没有他的第一夜

2008-12-12T06:14:00.000-08:00

好空虚，很不习惯，是我太依赖你吧？眼泪又流了，睁开着的眼睛很不听话，闭不上。很没用吧，说好要睡的，不要去想，说好要转心，可心还是会不知不觉中漂到你那里，很想放弃的，可是你吩咐的，说我需要转心读书，考式要到了。我真的乖，逼自己在读，一直在读，可不由自主的，又想到你，很想见你，就一眼都好，可迟迟的都不见你上网，你大概再忙吧？好了啦，读书了，不然你又会生气。。。。。。。

2008-12-12T04:24:00.000-08:00

At last, they graduate, today was the last preschool day of 2008, the 6 years children, im not

their parents, but really super duper hope they will hv a nice future, dunno y, it was a strong

feelin tat cannot be explained. I really love them, but time hv brought them away, so far

away, they all hv their own lives after tat, their bright future n soon, most probably, they will

forget me a so call teacher for them, they are past n parcel of my life, patrons that hv light up

my life, but they gone, but they left a present for me, A GOOD MEMORY, i really love them so

much so deeply. I cried again, tears leak out from my eyes again, i m so useless n helpless,

cried infront of the parents, but then i really really feel hard to let them go, after a year with

them, is hard to say bye, after all the graduate concert, we all work hard together b4 is hard

to separate. All of them, they were students, but i actually learned a lot from them, learn to

smile more, learn to be innocent ahahaaa, thx for them. I love them so much, i wont forget

bout them, the ways they look now n the memory we hv together we built together. Oo hard

to say goodbye, but teacher should let go for them to hv an adventurous lives. There are more

and more students for me to guide, i swear i will be a good teacher forever if i m.

2008-12-07T05:51:00.000-08:00

Hey see is me and Jenny, an adorable gal i knew last year, ahahhaa so happy to see her again. Hopefully our friendship last forever

Nice rite the picture ??

2008-12-07T04:30:00.000-08:00

He went back to singapore today, i never miss him tat much b4. Perhaps i never experince b4 cant talk to him for more than 3 hours eheheheheee. Is time for me to learn to acclimatize it. He is goin to Japan soon wow it must be a really hard time for me, cant see him for a week not even wif the webcam, no phone call, how i goin to pass through that week, struggle for tat week, i really dunno. Maybe exam can make me feel better ahhhaaaa i havin exam by tat time. Exam more important ofcuz eheee so juz leave him let go, n study exam study exam continuosly until he come back. Then we sure will have a nice vocation after tat eheee, i really hope so. But i need a time to shop too after exam, welll dunno who will really wanna shop wif me or else i hv to shop alone. TIme to study...........

2008-12-01T04:07:00.000-08:00

See finally we made it, we went to Aquaria near KLCC and really a fantastic experience there, the picture i took together wif him, hohohohoo know why both of us were not holdin camera but we can take it. This is becuz of me eheehehee showin pity face to ask the an mo take it for us n then the an mo super funny and very unlucky becuz the first two time, those ngek ngekssss blocking the camera, n then he had to wait until they gone only he manage to take our sweet picture. But the funny things is, he had no idea how to use the phone to take the picture, after he tried for few times only he manage to press the button deep inside and " clik" the photo is there. Wohohohohho but super paiseh, his dearest father showin us the dark face waitin for him to finish up the photo session n then to visit another part. Oopsy daisy so sorry to him. In the darker part, he was juz busyin wif his phone to turn it to flash light, n then he couldnt make it ahahhahahaha, tats his phone but he couldnt make it so funny and then i hv to stand there wif a pose waitin for him to move, going on wif another cute underwater animal. Woooo the best part is under the water, a lot oof sharks stingray wif lonnnnngggg tail n then wif a cute stone fish swimming above us ahhaaaaa, it was nice like i m swimmmin together wif then but they couldnt eat me........ n thhen we walked to the exit........
THE DAY NOT END YET, becuz we still have our MOVIE moghty " BOLT", actually not at all, it juz a super special, touching and funny cartoon. The "BOLT" dog is juz an actor wow but then it is cute ehehehehee if i hv a dog like it, i ll never let it gone away from me, becuz is juz safe when u hv it by ur side and it can be a peer a loyal and trustworthy peer.

Welcome To My Life

2008-11-22T03:01:00.000-08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belongAnd no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's likeTo be like me
To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's likeTo be like meTo be hurtTo feel lost
To be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my lifeNo one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Though this is an out dated song by simple plan, but it was the style up dated in my life now, i used to like tis song very much, but i dont understand it, but juz now when i listen to tis song, i feel like it was a copyright of my life now.is bout me, probably not juz me who was tat unlucky but there more who have the same unfortune like me. Real world, the real society, is so dark. Even in school, college was scary to me now, feel harder than moving a huge rock when the night end and the new day coming when i have to start working and go to college after that. Where i have to listen to stupid lies and see big fake smile. There is a home, but a cold home, where no one know me more, know how unhappy i m, n keep puttin oil on the fire. All i can do is juz hide inside the room not screamin but turn on de comp and listen to songs wow, how bore my life is. U noe how s my world like. I go to work everyday, and see the most fake face in my life, i really hate talkin about others, but i dunno y she so hate me until she wanted to do all those evil things to me not juz me probably. A so call fren of mine, ya dunno wat she think really becuz she alwiiz say she dunno me (perhaps jokin) to others. Infront of me she might be real good but super wicked behind of me. At 1st i dont believe other colleauge bout her but not juz one who told me but a lot wow, whenever i did sumthin tat might irritate her, her bad words about me will non stoppin to others teacher. But is okie, i dont mind, becuz it was part and parcel of workin life. Even to the senior teacher, the principle and assistant principle, my image has all gone( some i admit i did wrongly carelessly). The worse things is i have to study and work together wif her. Gosh, becuz of her, i hv to be all alone, alone and alone. Ya the so call best fren of mine, the one and only fren tat i can close wif hv gone. Becuz of her big fake mouth, she knew i dunno about the presentation, i juz bring my thumbdrive incase there will be a presentation, but she lie infront of everyone. Oh gosh, i alwiz convince myself that tis is part and parcel of life. Besides, the gal that tot i lie to her about the presentation, we use to be close, and she did told bad about the gal workin wif me( a lot), but suprisingly, after the incident they were close than ever hahaha, fake laugh fake smile. All fake but real world.

2008-11-20T04:12:00.000-08:00

Is another bad day, today as usual i went to work, went to college, but the worse things is i got my mid term result, and is too bad, my result drop compare to the last semester. Today i was unusual calm that normally i will burst and tears leak out from my eyes but not today. Izzit that i not concern to my result anymore, no ofcuz not i think..... i need to cope up for my final now obviously, if i dint do extremely well for my final i cant maintain my 3.5. The only hope now is my final, the chances to score in Final is limited, summore with trainings b4 that, all i can hope for is miracle that the lecturers will give us some how easier question ahahaha. Sounds like impossible, but then that s wat i can hope for now or else i could have just givin up and stop studyin becuz i noe that i will forget everythin i study too after that if i study now. GOSH, i have a new song to play and is from Debussy, ya the song is super nice but i hv no time for it now, this sat class, all i can do is juz sight read and play as well as i can ahahaha, so sorry to the teacher who teach me but i really dont hv time to practise now. Oops i cant even remember the title of the song wahahahaha, good luck to me

2008-11-17T05:18:00.000-08:00

tis better

2008-11-17T05:13:00.001-08:00

This was wat the other group did which was nice too but then theirs was a school model

2008-11-17T04:54:00.001-08:00

This our group work our piece de resistance, is nice and wow we took a long time to do finish up it. From 9th Nov to 14 Nov ahahahaha, is on sunday, my group member came to my house and we all did all together, though doin this project - classroom model we have a lot of mis communication but finally we did it, and i think it is a wonderful job but hopefully de lecture will give us a higher mark for this model. This semester my result getting worse and worse and i lost 5 mark for my course work becuz i miss my quiz sad sad........... haiz so damm afraid that my result will becum worst this time. Hv to study now janne

Thank God i Found you

2008-11-10T05:26:00.000-08:00

I would give up everythingBefore I'd seperatemyself from you
After so much sufferingI finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself forthe longest time
So cold inside And the hurt from theheartache would not subside
I felt like dying Until you saved my life
Thank God I found you I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with graditude'Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you
I will give youeverything nothing inthis world I wouldn'tdo
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you' Cause without youbeside me
I can'tsurviveDon't wanna try you keeping me warm each and every nightI'll be allright
Cause I need you in my life
Thank God I found you I was lost without you My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality When you brought thesunlight
Completed my wholelife I'm overwhelmed with graditud
And I'm so thankful I found you
See I was so desolatebefore you came to me Looking back
I guess it shows that we were destinedTo shine over the rain
to appreciateThe gift of what we have
And I'd go through itall over againTo be able to feel This way
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with graditude
See baby I'm so thankful I found you

2008-11-09T05:20:00.000-08:00

眼泪很懦弱，强忍着，不准让它流，累了，就随它去，记得以前小学的点点滴滴，仿佛又像回到了过去，我又是一个人了，表面上的只是一个小丑，在为人笑，为人生而笑。路人都在嘲笑，这个无助的小丑，她隐埋了她的累，她的泪，藏着了她的伤，时时刻刻在笑，容纳她的泪，只有她的房，了解她的，只有她的枕头。她曾经有过，不是一个人的四年，可是过了，时间把它带走了。她最怕的，一个人在当小丑，没有配角的在演着。不知何时何刻，才能演完。她很努力在演，就算太累了，她都还在笑，她不再时爱哭的小丑，演着一个不会哭的她，她很累很累，再加上高难度特技表演，她很想垮了，可是她没有机会，她凌虐自己，让伤有些解脱，可是摆脱不了因为她知道，活着最痛。

2008-11-08T06:49:00.000-08:00

Today, wow is my mum birthday, we have a super delicious dinner at a new restaurant named .......... (forget). I almost forget today is 8th nov. My mum have a really awesome birtdate, tat is 118 (direct translate to cantonese). So is super easy to remember her birthday. This morning, luckily my mum woke me up, it was time to work, but i still SNOORRRINNN ZZzzzzzzzz like a pig, hahaa i think my phone already rang for the fourth time but, i was still sleepin, or maybe i snored louder than my phone ring (impossible), bleeeekkk, but luckily my mum knocked my door to wake me up..... after tat, i went to the toilet to brush teeth, wash my face with a lazy mood (no time for bath) . Then a tiring day started. U noe wat, the indian teac who absent for 2 weeks came back. But then, i think our boss edy fired her. But is reasonable, i dont think my boss is cruel, but she juz doin her part. As a teacher we have to make sure that we muz get to school everyday becuz all the students will be more secure to hv a familiar teacher with them so, imagine if they have to face a diff teacher everyday, what they ll be like. They sure have no interest to go to school anymore...

2008-11-06T06:16:00.000-08:00

If i wander off too far,
ur love ll get me home,
if i follow the wrong star,
your love will get me home.

if i ever find my self
lost and all alone
get back on my feet
and think of you
your ove will get me home

if the bright lighta blind my eyes
your love will get me home
if my troubles break my strive
your love will get me home

if i ever find myself
lost and all alone
get back on my feet
and think of you
your love will get me home

if i ever feel ashamed
your love will get me home
if there s only me to blame
your love will get me home

if i ever find myself
lost and all alone
get back on my feet and think of you
your love will get me home
your love will get me home

2008-11-05T04:25:00.000-08:00

一直以为我有他，其实，只是他有了我。
开始懂了，我只是他的需要，任务，
只是在听，他虽然开了我的心锁，
可还进不了我的世界，我又哭了，声音再笑，
他知道，他听见，颤抖的笑，我选择逃
逃开他的问题，避开回答我不想提起的事，
我说了再见，说了他不想听到的“没事”。
因“没事” 让我之间有了代沟。
我们都说好了，要坦诚相对，很简单，
只是要坦诚，有这样难吗？是我没用
智商低，做不到。
我很珍惜，我很努力，在维持，
我不想累了，知道你也累了，
是感情再坚持着，再拉扯着我们的距离。

2008-11-02T04:42:00.000-08:00

你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪却一直掉下来　
过去怎么交代你该给的信赖　
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖　
从我脸上的苍白看到记忆慢下来　
过去甜蜜在倒带只是感觉已经不在　
而我对你的期待被你一次次摔坏　
已经碎成太多块要怎么拼凑跟重来

2008-11-01T06:05:00.000-07:00

谢谢你对我的无知，无理，的包容，我确实很无知，

常说你，很自私，可却不知道我才是自私，

我从来就不去体会你的你的忙，你的累，

常要你陪，我开始害怕，不再是你的谁。

对不起，我让你很累，做不成你的萤火虫。

我真的以为我可以，可你的笑验证了，可

我不想放手了，不可能了。我是，是很幸福，

很幸运，你是相反的很倒眉。

Happy Dinner

2008-10-29T06:46:00.000-07:00

we have our dinner at Chilis in Klcc, super full that nite, at 1st we plan to visit de Aquaria near o KLCC but unfortunately we couldn't make it, so sad becuz of the Chilis, we had to wait for half an hour and we miss the time to visit Aquaria. Super sad, that was the 2nd time we couldn't make it, haiz hope there s wont be a 3rd time..... hopefullllllyyyy cuz i m so desperate to visit the Aquaria, i ve never been there so sad, but luckily the dinner was super delicious.....

老师的心师

2008-10-29T06:06:00.000-07:00

又走了，他们也要走了，在幼儿园当老师最开心是看到学生懂事了，乖了，长大了，可是最伤心的也是看到他们懂事了乖了长大了，甚至，该毕业了，转校了。明年再不会见到天天逗你的他们。她适合当老师吗？可她真的很希望他们永远都是我的学生，舍不得他们的离去，担心他们的下个老师是好是坏，他们会变坏吗？

2008-10-27T06:03:00.000-07:00

Is in my cousin wedding tis is my cousin brother n my another cousin bro's gal fren, b4 de weddin there s a part we listen to the both bride's love story. They both knew each other from icq. Every couple have to been through a lot of odds to have a happy ending. Hopefully they will have a happy new honey moon year and their marriage will last forever. Not every couple can have a happy ending like them, hopefully they ll cherish each other as they promised each other during the wedding.

2008-10-27T06:02:00.000-07:00

2008-10-27T06:00:00.000-07:00

2008-10-27T05:52:00.000-07:00

Look is my piece de resistance, keeeee de one i worked for a nite is nice n cuteee rite? huahua wow did u see de small carrots at the left side, i cut it one by one over nite n the carrots below it wowm really a hard work, tis picture sacrificed my exam.... o no but finally i hv done it though not as good as other teacher, i edy re do it about three times at last i did it.

2008-10-22T05:48:00.000-07:00

haizzzz, last nite dint sleep whole nite becuz of de students project haizzzzz finnaaallyyy is super nice n is cute, but haiiiizzzzz i sacrifice my mid term my mark, haiiiizzz tis semester result will drop undoubtly hnnnnggggg sad sad de students project all i hv to do........... tomolo still gt parent teacher meetin days haiiiiizzzz my result err, my mark gone working while studying is not really a gud idea, ya is tiring but de worse one is it ll affect ur markssss haizzzz now very sleeeeppyyyy feel like Zzzzzzz but slap slap cannot sleep errrr hv to study slap slap wakkkkkeeeeeeeuppppppp

2008-10-22T05:33:00.000-07:00

2008-10-15T07:20:00.000-07:00

O oh, havin mid term next week, heeeeeeeee muz study really reALLY hard hard hard, this semester, hopefully score higher oooo. Haiz again, have a parent teacher meetin day next week, omg, alll de fussssyy parents again, is goin to be here haizzzzzzz Zzzzzzz, oh god plsssssssssssss help, i dunno wat to tell de parents, their children is super naughty or wattt leh? haizzzzzzz hopefully wont get complain again..........

语言的错

2008-10-12T07:37:00.000-07:00

何时开始，人们沟通了？有人知道吗？人，用的是语言，人与人之间少不了言语，可有了语言有了言语，就有了“一传十，十传百，百传虚”的厉害。人家说道听而途说，德之弃也，可却还会有人途说，有人道听。语言减少了人们之间的隔离，可它带给了人们之间的误会，增加了人们之间的争论，甚至争吵。社会里有许许多多利用语言来生存，可不擅长用语言来言语的，往往会因语言或言语被拉倒了，垮了。语言成了日常生活中的必需品，它让人密切，让人表达，可它真的很可怕, 不, 不该是它, 是人心或人性, 它们让语言可怕了. 少说话多做事, 可却有人认为多说话是好事。遥言，让人猜疑，可却人人相信，忠言却逆耳。人心，人性，让语言的存再是个错误，是时候该改了。

2008-10-05T23:35:00.000-07:00

我喜欢你紧握我的手一股安全的暖流渗透到胸口

我喜欢你叫我的语气理直气壮的粗鲁却有私密的亲昵

好想你不停止好想你我爱你写在手心你笑容你触碰

还是让我心动好想你不停止好想你我爱你给我勇气

那包容那悸动都是我珍藏的内容(被爱的光荣)

我喜欢你吻我的时候看你专注的低头像永远不够

我喜欢你叫我的名字一副若无其事的又像公开的密秘

好几次我怕会来不及还没抱够你不管我是你几分之几

我只要爱你

2008-10-04T21:13:00.000-07:00

刻苦耐劳，难道有苦有劳就有成功吗？？可有的人苦了劳了一辈子，得到的却是失败，或是遗憾的失去。皇天不负苦心人，可皇天真的很爱玩弄人，苦了一辈子的人，换得来的只是一场恶梦，还是到了尽头，永远的睡了，梦才醒了。为何人要努力的活着，只为了那一瞬间的快乐，还是漫长的劳累，意义在哪里?？或许有些人侥幸的赢了，达到了，可他付出的代价，和他失去的，划算了吗？？不幸的人却因欲望，走错了路，回不了岸，走到了尽头，埋没了良心，遗臭万年，或成了害群之马。人生真的如梦吗？何时才会醒，觉悟了，还是会有另一场梦，快乐时是梦，伤心时也是梦，梦何时了，结束了，梦得累了，病痛的梦，又来了，永远睡了，才是最清醒的。

is mei

2008-10-04T09:00:00.000-07:00

haha mei happy birthday o wish u luck.

me n phik

2008-10-04T08:54:00.000-07:00

me and phik durin our gatherin, so lovely, really hard to meet her and hv a such warm hug, wakaka. Hopefully she ll meet a prince charmin tat love her deeply and hv a happy endin forever cuz i prefer her smile than her tears.

Grumbling

2008-10-03T21:07:00.000-07:00

Oops headacche, two more days for my 4 assignment, but i edy feel like dying now, i juz done one quarter of it, i really feel like sleeepin now phewww, i should have read more books, newspaper watever so tat i dont hv to struggle search from the net like searchin a needle under de sea, wat a headache day. Mid term exam soon, but i still haven touch my notes yet, summore wif an annoyin boss, cuz me a lot of prob, progress report to meet parents ,ugghhhh i hate it. i have to blame the reggio emillia approach which cuz us hv to meet parents today though at 1st i like it. Summore wif a deepavali project, a lot of paper works to do, omg wat a tiring life.

contract

2008-10-02T20:12:00.000-07:00

In nine years i wan to travel around the world, have my own music school, more succeed than yamaha with my licensesheet, and my own preschool, i will work for it but now i have to finish my assignment and my exxam first. Jia you o

2008-10-02T08:12:00.000-07:00

很多次很想鼓起勇气问你，你会不会觉得没有我你会更好过，如果是，不要因为承诺和我一起，就算你要离开，我也没怨言，是我不够好，达不到你要求。。。。。

Romantic night

2008-10-02T00:13:00.001-07:00

2008-10-01T23:35:00.000-07:00

I don't know but I believe.

That some things are meant to be

.And that you'll make a better me.Everyday I Love You

I never thought that dreams came true.

But you showed me that they do.

You know that I learn something new.

Everyday I Love You'Cause I believe that destiny.

Is out of our control.

Don't you know that I do.

And you'll never live until you love.

With all your heart and soul.

It's a touch when I feel bad.I

t's a smile when I get mad.

All the little things I am.

Everyday I love youEveryday

I love you moreEveryday I love you'Cause I believe that destiny.

Is out of our control.Don't you know that I do.

And you'll never live until you love.

With all your heart and soul.If I asked,

"Would you say yes?"Together we're the very best.

I know that I am truly blessed.

Everyday I love you.And I'll give you my best.

Everyday I love you

2008-10-01T21:37:00.000-07:00

Oops, tears burst out again last nite, it really a hard nite for me, but aftter the war i feel better becuz i noe him more, feel relieved now everythin which been hidin in my heart bursted out finally. Perhaps it s pain but juz once and much more better after tat. I not really noe wat he s thinkin but at least i noe wat he wan and i willin to compromise though i not really like to. Maybe it is better for us, and i should hv noe how busy and how tired he was, striving for his dream. All i can do now is juz support him be his V power in order to help him "refill petrol" when he need and not pressurin him to acc me more. Juz Do It

Prince n me

2008-10-01T21:17:00.000-07:00

Is me and him, juz had our 1st year annivesary, perhaps it juz a year, but we been through a lot.

A New Begin/ REMINISCENE

Transformming

Mistake

Over

Over

New BEGINn

The EnDD

To my beloved cousin sis

倒带

情歌

过去还在

Good Bye

永别了

Trip and visit

EXAM OVER

他的生日快乐

长生不老

Sorry

Live dont leave

加油喔

青蛙

长大了

21st birthday wish

加油!!!!

LIFE

EXAM OVER

We ll miss you

My gOoD Fr!daY

蝸牛

A wheel

M I MAD???

Is breaktime !!!!

Creative Class

I HATE CENTIPEDE

Valentine Celebration

你要的爱 我明白

LOST

A Brand New Gal

Keep fit and study

大嘴巴

My CNY

A start

1st day preschool

助人为快了之本

The Sixth day

The fifth day

The Fourth Day

第三天了

第二天

没有他的第一夜

Nice rite the picture ??

Welcome To My Life

Thank God i Found you

Happy Dinner

老师的心师

语言的错

is mei

me n phik

Grumbling

contract

Romantic night

Prince n me

你要的爱我明白